Go Be Free

I sit in my office alone now. 
They shut everything down now
Isolation and Social distancing. 
You say it like it will hurt me. 
I've been social distancing for quite a while now. 
Communicate in silence now.
Apparently there are rules...wow!
Do you see my tears? 
Do you see my fears? 
Do you see what I've been through? 
Am I faking it well?
That smile I put on this morning? 
Nothing seems different to me. 
Its just another day without him
The person that loved me
What do I miss? 
I miss being loved. 
Lewis Capaldi said it best,
"I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved." 

The truth is, for me now
I do smile for real now. 
I can go to the store alone and be okay now.
I've accepted he's not by my side now.
I learned to step outside. How?
With acceptance comes strength. 
With strength comes courage. 
With courage comes hope. 
My hope is back now. 
Ready to return to the real world now. 
Wanting to shout it from the roof tops now

Is it okay with you,
Its okay with me
But only on my terms
Selfish I know
Don't break down these walls of independence
Encourage me to grow
Fertilize my imagination
Recognize my insecurities
Ignite my passion
Extinguish my vulnerabilities
Exhilarate my soul
Surrender to fear
Its time to be free


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